"May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays."


This blog is neither pro-adoption nor anti-adoption. This is merely the story of a mother and her journey towards healing.



A Few Things

I just got back from the Farmer’s Market (I feel very healthy right now!) and we’re heading out again soon but I need to get some things out of my brain so I can enjoy this beautiful day with my beautiful son and my beautiful Husband. (What? Yeah, they’re boys. But they’re both stinkin’ beautiful.)  That said:

  1. I booked a flight to visit J, D, Munchkin, JD and the rest of the crew. Many of you know, though I haven’t discussed it in detail on the blog, that I had to cancel a trip earlier this month. After some therapy, some honest discussion with D and some cool homeopathic stuff, I’m feeling much better. It’s a short trip (Mon evening to Thurs morning) to sort of test how I’m doing. But really? I miss D. I miss Munchkin. And I hear JD is getting super cool and I need to huggle him. That said? USAirways has tickets for 29 dollars on weekdays (Monday - Thursday). BigBrother and I (lap child) are flying round trip for 78 buckaroos. That’s right. It does help that I’m flying out of Pittsburgh because I’ll be visiting The Farm for my brother’s high school graduation the three days prior.
  2. I went to the library earlier this week to stock up on books for both BigBrother and myself. I got BigBrother a bunch of BRAND NEW (never borrowed) books because they got a huge shipment in. He’s digging. I got myself some “light” and easy reading because I’m behind on my goal for the year and wanted to breeze through a few without heavy issues. I’ll be darned if the first book that I started reading doesn’t have a FLIPPING adoption storyline. Actually, it’s quite interesting thus far and I’m not too miffed but, seriously? I was purposefully seeking books that wouldn’t make me hurl myself off a cliff. Eesh!
  3. BigBrother now names Munchkin’s pictures when he sees them (mostly the one on the fridge, one on the table in the living room that he picks up and kisses and one in his bedroom). He calls her “Nonna” which is what JD calls her. Though you have to be able to distinguish between Nonna and Nana. ANYWAY, watching him kiss her picture and say, “Hi Nonna” makes me kinda weepy.
  4. (D, stop reading!) I want to do something special for D on the trip. (D, start reading again!) And something special for Munchkin. Note that our time is limited. Please leave a comment for ideas for something cool to do with Munchkin and e-mail me for ideas with D. Oh, and D? Tell J that he will be, most definitely, cracking my back.
  5. Speaking of, J is back in the hospital as of last night. Please say a prayer.

OKAY! I don’t know why it’s eighty degrees before eleven in the morning in SE Ohio but… it is. I’m off to sweat with the beautiful boys. (That sounds awful.)


I innocently began reading my book club book and, YUP, it had adoption in part of it. Then I began reading a thriller/mystery by Harlan Coben and again… Sometimes, it is everywhere around I look.

Yes, I am well educated, LOL. “Everywhere I look” is what I meant to write.

I am sorry that you are going through so much right now. Trusting that you are able to walk through this test a much stronger woman than you started. If you are looking for unsolicited advice (if not just skip this…:D ) James 1: 2-4. Keeps me grounded when I am really overwhelmed.

Considering an idea for you and D… what about an afternoon at a spa. A good massage/manicue/pedicure/facial/hair session can set many things right.

Keeping you all in my prayers
Blessings