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I haven’t done lyrics in two days. I’ll go back to it tomorrow. Right now, I need to get some stuff off of my chest.

I’ve got some jealousy issues that I really wasn’t aware of until some recent discussions and developments. Or, rather, maybe I knew it was there but I felt like a big jerk for feeling that way. Or something. But, I need to say it so that, a) I remember to bring it up with my therapist and, b) I can just get it “out there,” instead of dwelling on it “inside.”

And so…

I’m jealous of mothers who experienced unplanned pregnancies, especially at ages younger than I was, and got to keep -slash- made the decision to parent. I feel immature and catty for saying so. But it’s true. That said, I would never wish ill on a mother. I want them to stay with their babies! I want them to be the best that they can be! I just recently shoved my stupid, immature jealousy aside and offered some advice regarding labor and delivery to a very young mother. But it’s there. Lurking. Festering.

Why not me?

I’m not quite sure how to process this particular feeling. Or where to put it right now. Or why it exists specifically. But, it does. And since I’m all about straight-up-honesty on this blog, I thought I’d out myself.

Here’s hoping my therapist has some insight on this issue. Because I’m flabbergasted.

**HUGS**

It’s completely understandable that you’d feel that way. I’d think that would be a normal reaction for most first mothers. Not that it makes it more fun for you to deal with! But I’d guess that you’re not alone.

And I have no idea if you’ve ever thought of me that way, but if I’ve ever unintentionally made you feel bad in any way, I’m really sorry.

Does it help to know your not alone? I feel the same way and I can even go further and say that I feel “ashamed” that they could do it and I thought I couldn’t. It angers me.

((((hugs)))

Michelle’s last blog post..Finding Peace

I feel the same way. My best friend just had a baby in February, unplanned and her Catholic family celebrated it and gave her a baby shower.

Breanna’s last blog post..Fire

I, too, am faced with that ugly green-eyed monster sometimes when I see/hear stories of single young women being embraced and loved and cared for and celebrated while pregnant/raising their child.

I, too, often think, “Why couldn’t my family celebrate me? I was OLDER than her! I was more independent than her! WHY?”

(((((hugs)))))
I understand,

I imagine your jealousy is similar to my jealousy of women who can GET pregnant and STAY pregnant.

I am pretty sure your therapist will tell you your feelings are perfectly normal and healthy.

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