Oh, what a night. I’m emotionally drained on top of being physically exhausted.
I woke up around three o’clock this morning with contractions. And I was instantly transported back to this same time frame with the Munchkin. As the clock neared 4:30, I kept expecting my water to break. Everything was eerily familiar. Except the location. And the Husband. And my enormous size. (I only gained nineteen pounds with that pregnancy.)
And so, as I was up and feeling awful and wondering what was happening, I was having flashbacks of those last few weeks leading up to pregnancy. Things I don’t often think about because life gets in the way and/or I don’t want to think about them on a regular basis. Nothing like getting overwhelmed with emotion while your uterus is imploding. It was a very long night.
It was so silent the night that I woke up in labor with her. The sheets in the bed were soft and cool. It hadn’t yet started snowing but it would soon. She had thrown herself a party a few nights prior; I watched my belly shake and roll. Even now, I can’t believe we were once so close.
Too much. Back to breathing slowly. (Lyrics again tomorrow. Unless I’m in labor.)
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Praying for you and this little one. And also for your heart.
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Oh, Honey.
I’m sending you my strongest loving prayers for a smooth and peaceful and healthy, happy delivery, should that be what happens this soon.
And more of the same loving thoughts for your heart and your soul, regardless of labor date.
I know this season is hard for you. You aren’t alone. All my love, and the love of so many, goes with you. Bless you now and always. You have long been a hero of mine, and a beacon.
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