Our visit for next week has been rescheduled. It’s necessary. There are some health issues on their end which don’t need to be discussed in a public venue but could use some prayer. There’s also a lot of “unknown” happening with the situation that just makes everything far too stressful for a visit to occur. Add on top of that LittleBrother’s impending surgery (no, I haven’t talked about it yet) and, well, it’s all probably for the best for both families.

Am I bummed? Sure. But I’m not a dorkface. I know what stress is like, especially when it involves health and the unknown. So, I accept the hand I’m dealt and look to the future. Spring, over winter, is much better for a visit anyway. Ever been cooped up with four little children and no where to go? Going outside is much better for the nerves!

A friend of mine asked if I am angry. No. Far from it. I’m concerned and worried for the issues involved. I’m in constant prayer for healing and answers. I’m hopeful that things will work out for a visit soon. And I’m thriving on the awesome set of videos that D sent to me earlier this week. (Because? The Munchkin? Is the best dancer EVER! No. Really. She knew the whole dance recital routine and the other girls didn’t. She wins!!)

This is just part of the complexities of an open adoption relationship. The unexpected. Learning to deal with it. Being flexible. Going with the flow. Being honest with one another when you simply cannot do something and how that makes you feel. And so on. I accept my role in all of this and hope that I can continue to handle it in this calm, logical manner.

All that said?

I do miss my daughter.

But soon! Soon, folks!