The blog has been relaunched.

A new comment policy has been instated. You must register to comment on this blog. All comments must be approved. And I will liberally ban if you’re a jerk.

Here’s the facts as they stand: I have never been all pro-adoption nor have I been all anti-adoption. I have been somewhere in the middle, always, attempting to find my way towards healing. Right now, I’m struggling in my journey towards healing. I could blame Angry Commenters, my daughter’s parents or the heat but it comes down to the fact that this is where I am right now in my healing. (Add in the exacerbation of PPD and, well, that’s how it goes.) I am not okay with certain things and I have a right to be not okay with certain things.

Last week I was called a “negative birth mother.” It’s simply not true. I am a positive person who happens to be a birth mother going through a very trying time. In fact, one could call the “stuff” that I am going through as a “negative experience.” However, I am trying (oh, God, am I trying) to find the light in the sky, the silver lining the proverbial pot of gold. I am working through my issues as any self-respecting individual should. I will not apologize for being sad. I will not apologize for my anger. (I think the world needs to be reminded that anger is not a negative emotion unless you allow it to be.) I will not apologize for wanting better, for trying to find that better for myself and my family. And I will definitely not apologize for being honest, for being real.

Finally, a quote:

“Never be bullied into silence. Never allow yourself to be made a victim. Accept no one’s definition of your life, but define yourself.” - Harvey S. Firestone

I’ll write more, later, on how that applies to my life. But I’m done being told, by various groups of people, to keep my mouth shut. If what I am saying makes you uncomfortable, then just mosey on along. No one is forcing you to read my blog. No one is forcing you to keep coming back. No one is forcing you to write nasty comments. It’s your own issue, not mine.

I’m back. I’m stronger for these lessons. And I’ll continue on my journey towards healing.