"May the love hidden deep inside your heart find the love waiting in your dreams. May the laughter that you find in your tomorrow wipe away the pain you find in your yesterdays."


This blog is neither pro-adoption nor anti-adoption. This is merely the story of a mother and her journey towards healing.



Changes

I talked with Munchkin on the phone earlier this week. It was an early morning before she went off to her first day of school for the year. I don’t know if she was tired and had a sleepy voice. Or the beginnings of a cold. Or what it was. But her voice was different.

Maybe I’m overly sensitive to changes as I haven’t seen her in over a year. Maybe her voice hasn’t changed at all and my memory is already starting to warp things that I never wanted to forget. But it struck me.

“This is the voice of my daughter. And I don’t know it.”

I wouldn’t have known it in a room of crowded people. If I was blinded, I wouldn’t have picked it out. And I’ve been mulling that fact over in my head a lot this past week. It’s just a weird thing, as a birth mother, to realize that changes are going to happen and some of those things are going to make me unable to initially recognize my daughter.

It’s a good thing she has my eyes.