Posted: December 31, 2008 at 2:55 am
I asked the Munchkin what she got for Christmas.
“Too much.”
From the looks of pictures and the stories, she had a similar (but girlier) Christmas to ours. Filled with family and presents and laughter. It is, of course, what I wanted for her when choosing adoption. A family to love her for everything that she is.
I dealt with missing her better this year than in years past. I think that part of it was because we were so busy with family things on our end, traveling to and from my husband’s various family members’ houses. By the time we got home, put boys in bed and cleaned up the toysplosion, I was suddenly hit with the realization that I didn’t call her. I believe this is the first year that I didn’t call in the morning or afternoon. But I got to talk to her the next day. Still, that nagging guilt sits there. I’ll remember next Christmas Day.
I’m thinking, now, about three years ago when she and her family arrived to meet newborn BigBrother for the first time. It was a crazy New Years Eve and Day that year with newborn BigBrother and newborn JD and a Munchkin and four of us adults in our (then) two bedroom apartment. But we made it work somehow. And now I’m looking forward to the Munchkin finally meeting LittleBrother. So much so that I can’t even properly put words to it.
My Christmas has just reminded me how blessed we truly are. In so many ways.
Posted: December 23, 2008 at 2:00 am
For two days now, I’ve been stumbling through drafts of this post. I can’t figure out what to say because I’ve been smiling so darn hard (even through the coughs and general ick).
WE HAVE A VISIT SCHEDULED!
In mid-late-week January, the boys and I will be driving to meet D and the kids at a location that holds the lot of us! (My husband, being third man from low man on the totem pole can’t claim vacation that early in the year. He’s bummed but excited for us.)
I have all of these exciting words in my soul. But I can’t verbalize any of them. They’re all good (with some minor worry, of course, but it’s me). I’m just so overwhelmed with excitement and love! I can’t wait! Is it 2009 yet? Because my youngest son is finally going to meet his sister.
Life, my readers, is good. Very, very good.
Posted: December 19, 2008 at 3:12 pm
Yesterday evening, I logged on and found that Munchkin’s Mom was also online. After a quick exchange of proper hellos, she announced, “I have more videos!” This, of course, made me smile in itself. She’s been sending me videos pretty regularly for a few weeks now. I love each one.
It’s always a surprise to see what the videos are as she doesn’t preface them before sending. It’s like a surprise on my screen each time!
Last night? She sent me video of the Munchkin in her first Christmas pageant. She was a goat. An absolutely adorable goat, if I must be pressed for some detail. While you could argue that she would have been the cutest angel up there if she had been an angel, her Mom explained that the goat had a longer line than the angels did. The teacher/leader gave the Munchkin the longest line because she thought she would handle it best. As she was saying her memorized line, I was amazed at how she said it without fault! Her Mom then told me that she learned her long line on the very first day.
My heart filled with a whole lot of pride. Which then make me step back and ask myself if that was an okay reaction. I mean, I obviously had no part in helping her learn that line, learn the songs or be socially aware enough to stand on stage and not freak out (like I did for my first performance). Her Mom is doing a great job at that day-to-day stuff. So, did I have a right to be proud of how well she did?
Well, yes, you’re darn right I had a right! She did an amazing job! And was stinkin’ adorable while doing it! I was proud of everything she has accomplished. She’s amazing. She really, really is. I’m not taking responsibility for her awesomeness, I’m just proud of it.
And that feels good.
