I’ve been fiddling around with One Word for years. I do it for fun. However, I’ve decided to use it to help me with subjectry on this blog. I’m having difficulty putting anything into coherent words. Right now, I have three posts saved but not published because I can’t figure out what I’m trying to say. And so, I’ll be using One Word prompts to write.
Today’s Word: surface.
What I wrote in 60 Seconds: On the surface, I always seem like a calm, collected and well-put-together individual. Bubbling just beneath this polished exterior is a river of issues, running hot as lava. I began this blog in hopes of dealing with on facet of those issues: the placement of my firstborn.
And in continuation:
I’ve gotten pretty good at fooling people into thinking that I am always happy, on top of things and a generally light-hearted being. Only those who are privvy to my most private of thoughts (Husband, D, Leah) know that is not always the case.
Only recently have I allowed myself to admit that I am not exactly pleased with the way adoption has hurt not only me but my Husband, my parented child and other various family members and friends. I don’t think I fully realized the extent to which adoption had hurt me emotionally until I held my son for the first time on November 17, 2005. Since then I have been realizing, almost on a daily basis, how adoption has changed who I am, how I view things and how I relate to my own child.
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That’s all for the day. BigBrother is demanding my attention as he finds his playmat to be throroughly entertaining today and I must go join in on the laughter. Look for prompts on a semi-daily basis.
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